On the whole, I am taking much better care of myself and feel much better now that I've reigned in the madness of a nightly pint of ice cream, but there is hard work to come to terms with this ability to deceive myself. My brain says: "Meh, it's just a little (candy), (handful of fries),(bite of ice cream), etc." and then I'm off to the races: I cannot stop at just one.
If you knew me in real life, you might have no idea that I am addicted. I really look great on paper and can function quite well in the world, but inside I'm a (recovering) mess.
Lessons learned:
- Restaurants are not a good place for me right now
- A Daily Food Plan is essential
- Attending meetings is very important
And
- I can't do this alone. I really can't. I've tried for years and failed. My failure is not a moral flaw. This is a real addiction.
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